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Peter was not prepared when his love Shayne died in a car crash. His days have become therapy and drinking himself to sleep. His only solace is listening to Shayne's voice mail to hear his voice one last time. He is starting to think that fate is against him.He has no idea how right and wrong he is.CONTENT ADVISORY: This title is a love story that does not contain a HEA....

Title : Last Dance with Mary Jane
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ISBN : 9781614956396
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Number of Pages : 76 Pages
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Last Dance with Mary Jane Reviews

  • Baba
    2019-04-23 20:04

    3 stars. Review posted July 8, 2016That's how it began…FATE IS a bitch. I don’t use that word a lot because it’s demeaning to women and is generally used when men are threatened by strong women. That’s not the case in point. I said Fate is a bitch, and that’s exactly what I meant. She’s a cruel and petty woman who enjoys nothing more than making people’s lives miserable. I could name half a million reasons why I believe this, but unless you’re that woman in Missouri who won the lottery twice, you know firsthand how nasty an entity she can be. It’s important to point out that I’m talking about Fate and not God. If God has a plan for all of us, Fate is simply the lackey executing the plan. I’m pretty sure, if there is a grand plan, the details are left to her. And it’s the details that fuck you.(…)When I read the first page of Last Dance with Mary Jane, I said to myself, "What an intriguing beginning. I'm so hooked." Yeah, the writing was pretty amazing. Unfortunately, though, the whiny, shouting, screaming, savagely moping and horribly sobbing main protagonist, Peter Silver, ruined the whole story for me. You know, everyone has experienced loss and grief, every single one of us. Life beat me up a few times, and it gutted me when I lost my big brother at a relatively young age. But I'm still standing. I cried, I hurt, I grieved and I was at odds with fate. And years later, after having been acquainted with more in-depth details, I was incredibly angry and disappointed with the woman who was supposed to love and respect him. It was a huge betrayal, and getting to really know the circumstances of his death crushed me. It felt like I was losing him all over again. This being said, I never acted like I was the human being who had to deal with the biggest and most dramatic loss in the whole wide world. Because I know there are always people who have to face a pain that's greater than mine, a pain that's born out of unconceivable bereavements. And then you meet a fictional character whose life had been successful and good (he had acquired a great wealth and experienced a deep and unconditional love), and you can't help scrutinizing his behavior. Yes, I'm aware that everyone of us is handling pain differently but this? Seriously?? Besides, Shayne hadn't died a couple months ago; it had been quite a while since Peter lost his partner (view spoiler)[pardon...husband (hide spoiler)]. Regardless of how much time has passed, (view spoiler)[ he's still willing to just die instead of picking up the pieces and move on. Well, he was ready to close that chapter of his life at the end of the story. There is that. (hide spoiler)]Long story short, I wanted to tell Peter to get a grip. He cut a ridiculous and very IRRITATING figure. His self-pity was cheesy and tastelessly excessive.Pre-reading Last Dance with Mary Jane:The first time I'm reading this author's work.["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>

  • Heather K (dentist in my spare time)
    2019-04-10 19:59

    *4.5 stars*Warning: Do not read this book unless you are prepared to curl up in a ball and bawl your eyes out. If you can handle some pain, this book is WELL worth it. It is a beautiful, bittersweet story about love and loss that will stay with you for a looong time.This story was my first time reading a John Goode book, and simply put, I was floored. His style was so accessible, so easy to get immersed in, that I felt like I was the one with the dead lover. Peter's loss was so gut wrenching that it was impossible not to empathize with him. John Goode did an amazing job getting readers to feel incredibly strong emotions in under 100 pages.I nearly gave this story the full 5 stars, but it veered a little bit too much towards the paranormal side towards the end. I think I would have preferred more mystery. However, if you can get through the last few pages without making that "eeeegh oooogh," sniffly-shriek combo crying noises, you have NO HEART because that ending gutted me. A must read for anyone who is sick of stories that don't show enough emotion or chemistry, or anyone who just wants to FEEL something from a book. An excellent read. **Copy provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review**

  • T.A. Webb
    2019-04-17 19:05

    Peter isn't handling the death of his partner well. Ah, that's an understatement, perhaps. He's out of his friggin' mind.He's drinking, thinking over and over about the irony of what strength and will it took for Shayne to not only accept his diagnosis of Stage 2 HIV infection and the six or seven year life expectancy, but to actually overcome it and be healthy on the other end. Then, to lose his life in a freak car accident when he had everything to live for.And the worst of his downward spiral is the constant calls he makes to Shayne's cell phone, just to have that one last bit of his man, one small slice of his day where he can hear his voice and everything can be right with the world.But he knows that he's just hanging on by his fingernails. To Shayne, to his sanity.And there are people all around him trying to help - his therapist, a bartender, and his neighbor. Trying to get him to get it all out and move on.And then his life takes the weirdest turn yet when he calls Shayne's phone to hear him one more time...and Shayne answers.What would you do?John Goode has taken this dilemma and turned it inside on itself in this breathtakingly beautiful story about the ultimate second chance. To take my worst nightmare - losing a loved one without being able to say all the important things like "I love you" one more time - and having God, fate, the Universe give me one more chance to talk to that so poignantly gut-wrenching.Mr. Goode took me by the hand and led me along this road of discovery that is at once so self-evident and yet so very hard to grasp. He showed me the slow growth of love and caring, and how the path of love and life takes us through joy and illness and anger and joy. Then the grief of loss, and the stumbling steps we try to take to get back on way to living again.Ah, but it would be easy to stop there. Just to make this another man-gets-over-tragedy story. That's not good enough. Mr. Goode took it one step further, and asked me, if you could make one last call, have one last talk, what would you say?His Peter has to make that choice, and it forced me to wonder for myself, what would I do and what would I say? It's especially relevant as I just lost my partner, but I had the chance to say all the important things, the I love you's and the you are mine and I am yours and the goodnight and goodbyes.But...I would give much - everything - to have one more talk...but I have no regrets.There are fantastic turns and twists here - how Shayne got to be nicknamed MJ, and how Shayne used the word "feckless" and who it pissed off, and how the Universe is like a clock.Trust me, read this and find it all out for yourself. Then think about who you need to call tonight and say something to, in case you don't have a tomorrow with them.Just...excellent.Tom

  • Ami
    2019-03-29 17:05

    ** This is a review for the first edition (2012) **The blurb is pretty simple -- but the story is anything but. It has a paranormal element, with Shayne answering Peter's call even though he died almost a year ago, as well as another plot related to Fate. However, there is no ghost love or second chances that returns Shayne back to life. The warning content clearly says no HEA.I have no idea how to review this without giving away the whole story. All I can say that its another great short story from John Goode. It tells a story how Peter (as the one left behind) deals with his grief and anger (towards Fate, because Peter doesn't believe in God), and at the same time how he reaches that final stage of acceptance.There is some kind of mystery too -- a hint that Peter needed to tell Shayne something but he never did, and now that Shayne was dead, he could never do -- and it stopped me from peeking on the last chapter (yes, I'm a peeker). When I find out what it is that Peter needs to tell Shayne, my eyes immediately start blurring out with tears.Beautiful short story ... even without the HEA, which manage to make me all melancholic about Spider-Man and Mary Jane. John Goode once again impresses me.PS: Even if the story is sad, John still able to insert his fresh sense of humor. Like this voice-mail of Shayne, which makes me smile when I read it ..."You'd think I'd have a good excuse for not answering my phone, but honestly, if you know who you're calling, we both know I most likely lost it. So if it's important, call Peter. He always knows where I'm at. If it isn't important… then why are you calling me?"Edited to add: some name callings for Fate, whom Peter thinks as a female (not male). If you're a female, don't let it bother you, though. Fate knows how to handle herself for people like Peter.

  • Elsbeth
    2019-03-27 18:09

    Last minute BR, April 29th with Paul, Sonia and Julie.OMG, John you managed to make me an emotional mess, right now!!Beautiful, BEAUTIFUL story about the purpose of life and how we should live it with no regrets.... ******************************"Every single person counts, Peter. No matter how small or trivial they may seem, each one is precious and vital and needs to live to their fullest" ******************************Thank you, John!!Reading-updates3%"I didn't say God, did I? I said Fate's a bitch, and she does make cars crash. Fate makes all sorts of things happen, and unlike God, no one goes to church on Sundays to thank her for fucking up their life."13%"Good news is something I've always mistrusted. My life has been littered with debris that's the aftermath of good news - the result of me droppig my guard.17%"(....) he was texting us while he was stalking you and said you were either a spy or a superhero, the way you kept to yourself.""So, Superman""Nope. You don't have the all-American thing going for you, You have too much angst. Also, you're kinda a nerd," he said."So, that means I'm SpiderMan?""You're better. You're my Peter Parker."So that makes you my Mary Jane? Come on and kiss me, Mary!!"25%(view spoiler)[When the voice mail beeped, I noticed I had started crying."But you answered," I wailed. "You were there! Where are you?""I'm sorry, but your time is up." (hide spoiler)]26%"I feel like I'm dying.""Nonsense," she answered quickly. "If you were actually dying, there would be less pain."34%(view spoiler)[Gosh, this is harsh!!! Peter keeps on hearing his husbands voice...(hide spoiler)]40%We go through so much every day that it's impossible to notice the good things when someone's inundated with all the bullshit. But Peter, if you look back at it as a whole, I bet you'll see more good than bad."63%(view spoiler)["You wanted more time, a chance to make him as happy as he made you, and instead you went back to work and ignored him. And you're left with more regrets that you had before he got sick and a lifetime of grief. (hide spoiler)]67%"We all have to dance, Peter, no exceptions. We all dance until the music stops. Those are the rules.75%(view spoiler)["I love you, Spider-Man""I love you too, Mary Jane" (hide spoiler)]100%Finished..["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>

  • ¸. • * ° *❧Gwendolyn❧°**★•°**★
    2019-04-02 14:01

    Well...That was sad.....CONTENT ADVISORY:This title is a love story that does not contain a HEA.Believe it,....and ,God, I kind of did not even give a care( in getting my HEA )when I normally do. This book was beautify written.3 Devastating Heart-Felt Stars

  • Sara
    2019-04-26 19:07

    We all have to dance, Peter, no exceptions. We all dance until the music stops. Those are the rules.Well that hurt. This was sad, I mean read the blurb and you get that it will be sad but OH MY GAWD this was sad. I can't see, I had to take my glasses off to wipe my eyes and blow my nose from all my ugly crying. Fate, she is a bitch and there are now seven words that I really want to kick in the nards... “I’m sorry, but your time is up.” Ugh. Let me just say, that if you lose someone suddenly, their death is a weighted grief, it's constant and though it may subside to a low hum, the small things that remind you of them are at times harder than the first day they left. It’s hard to explain, but when it came back to me that he was dead, I could feel an ache in the center of my being where he used to be. Like someone had gouged out my soul with an ice cream scoop, but I was only aware of it when I remembered he was gone. The closest thing I could compare it to was being punched in the heart, except it was deeper than a bruise. The ache permeated my bones. This was well written with a bit of a fantasy element that reminded me of The Return with the phone deal but it was handled well and if you feel the need to have your heart drawn and quartered, give this a try. It's sad but it's worth it? I think? Dunno. My head hurts from crying.

  • Kaje Harper
    2019-03-31 15:57

    An intense and imaginative story about a man mourning the death of his lover, mired in regrets and unable to move forward. The resolution was bittersweet and satisfying.

  • Sammy Goode
    2019-04-09 18:53

    It is often a fact of life that an author, upon finding their niche, remains there, rarely venturing into another genre. After all, when was the last time Stephen King wrote historical fiction or Dean Koontz wrote a romantic comedy. No, for the most part an author hits his mark and comfortably remains there, honing his craft.John Goode, on the other hand, is a rule breaker…no staying put in one genre for him—no, he decided to take a walk away from YA m/m fiction and stroll into the adult M/M world, where he threw in just a bit of the supernatural for a twist and came up with this: Last Dance with Mary Jane. When I saw this novel, I will admit I was a bit worried. If you have read any of my reviews of John Goode’s YA work, specifically his Foster High Series, then you know I am a fan…ok, I am a borderline stalker—but a fan nonetheless. So, this foray into what the publishing world calls adult M/M fiction? Well, it made me just a bit uneasy. “Why tinker with genius” was my first thought? “Oh god, what if it’s not very good” was my second.Well…well, I could never have been more wrong in my life. No, Last Dance with Mary Jane was not good—it was devastatingly brilliant. And I have the empty tissue box to prove it!In the opening pages of this novel you find out that Peter has lost his partner, Shayne, or as Peter affectionately calls him MJ (Mary Jane—to find out why, you will need to read the book—c’mon I can’t give away too many little gems!).He is devastated. Having made his fortune in the dot com world, Peter was financially prepared when AIDS began to slowly kill Shayne, however, what he was completely unprepared for was Shayne getting better. He had lived for so many years waiting for the other shoe to drop that he almost did not recognize when they stopped falling.When Shayne is ripped from Peter’s overly busy workaholic life, Peter goes into a tailspin of deep depression, seeking out the help of a counselor, a bartender, and even a neighbor; all of whom gently try to remind him that without pain we cannot recognize the joy and that when we only focus on the end moment, we fail to remember the moments of joy in the journey. Rightfully so, Peter hangs onto his pain and anger and drowns their words of comfort in a bottle of booze. He clutches to his dead partner’s mobile like a lifeline and faithfully calls it just to hear Shayne’s voice on the answering message. Then one day, Shayne, a very dead Shayne, picks up the phone and says hello. Thus begins a horrific journey that will lead to a life-changing revelation for Peter and, in the end, allow him to breathe for the first time since Shayne’s death.However, getting to that breathing part? It was, unfortunately earmarked by more pain and deep, sometimes dark introspection and undeniable truth. Peter is shown, irrefutably that we all have a part and a stake in this plan we call life; and no matter how much we want it to be different—want for it to work on our timetable, life marches on and sometimes it is cut short.Did I mention that empty box of tissues? Did I mention that I also stay away from angst in novels in general? I do, truly. It takes an incredible story—a well-written, life-affirming novel to make me delve into a story line that is in it’s way not truly a happy ending but most assuredly a hopeful, uplifting ending. That is Last Dance with Mary Jane in a nutshell.Due to John Goode’s masterful writing, the reader plumbs the depths of all that make his characters tick. We live with them, laugh and dream with them and yes…weep with them. Our hearts are linked irrevocably with the people he creates and we see pieces of ourselves--our beliefs, our loves and our hurts on the page. Last Dance with Mary Jane was not just a story of loss--no, it was much, much more. It was a story that will resonate far beyond the last page—a story that will change the way you think, the way you live…the way you dance.

  • Marcie
    2019-04-02 12:50

    I don't think I've ever cried so much during a book. I mean, for every action, every thought, every feel, every tear,- I was there. I was Peter. And boy did it fucking hurt. But the beauty of this heartbreaking story was the message behind it: what if we ran out of time? What if this was the last dance? Would we be able to look back at all the choices we made and say I have no regrets? I assure you, John didn't surgarcoat this scenario, and because of it it has made a very lasting impact for me.Thank you Paul for this early Valentine gift. And for figuring out the easy/fast way for us to lose a couple pounds ;)

  • Tully Vincent
    2019-04-16 18:01

    OMGosh... sad and very beautiful. *sniffle*

  • Sonia ~Ruber's fiancé in Crystal Court universe~
    2019-04-04 18:10

    April 29th, BR with Julie, Paul and Elsbeth!!!! :D April 29th, BR with Julie, Paul and Elsbeth! (and whomever wants to join :D)I don't even know what to say.. This was such an amazing and beautiful read.. Is it sad?Yes.. Is it gonna rip out your heart and make you cry until you can't breath anymore?Yes..Is it a tribute to the love two people can have for each other no matter the circumstances?Yes.. Are you gonna smile at all while reading it?Yes, because John has a way with words I've yet to encounter and our guys are funny..Are you gonna fall in love with the story even though it broke your heart?Yes! You have no idea...Am I still crying while writing this review?Yes..But man oh man do you have to read this book! I never thought I would adore a book without a HEA so much.. though the way I see it, they got their HEA... No, I'm sorry I can't do this book justice with my review..John, you are without a doubt my favorite author. You have a way to touch my heart .. it's magical :) thank you for being a writer!!!

  • Britta ★ Nachteule ★
    2019-04-06 15:04

    I'll try to write a review later.... right now... I just can't...

  • Sadonna
    2019-04-12 14:03

    Ah, John. You got me again. A completely surprising, tragic, gut-wrenching story that will take you on a roller coaster ride. Whatever I say here will not do any justice to the beauty of this story. Just read it. If it doesn't move you, you have never really loved and lost anyone.Brilliant.

  • Lucy
    2019-04-11 12:52

    It is the mark of an incredible story that days after I’ve read it, I can just think of parts of it and it will make me cry. Those who know me know that HEA is mandatory for me. I do not read bittersweet. Yet, something about the cover of this book, a picture of two so very happy looking people with the glass of the frame shattered, caught my eye, and then I wanted to know – who is Mary Jane? I will say, when I found out, yes, it fit. Shayne is diagnosed with HIV when he is 25, and Peter spends his time nursing him, and “convince him to live one more day, just one more day.” When Shayne has a major downhill slide, he is taken to the hospital and Peter goes to the chapel, lighting a candle out of respect for a god he doesn’t believe in. He believes Fate is out to get him. A terrible childhood and his parents dying was supposed to be balanced by the love of Shayne, the “guy who made you a better person just by being with you”, but who is now sick and dying. He calls Fate a feckless thug and rails against the injustice of it all. When Shayne begins to improve, they almost don’t even realize it, and when his life span continues, they go back to a different kind of life, Peter goes back to work. And then Shayne dies in a freak accident. There are times in the book when you just know that John Goode knows pain, because the little things that nearly tear you apart are present. That first moment of waking up, reaching over and realizing the other side of the bed is empty, and it’s empty because he’s dead. Or carrying his iPhone around like a talisman because sometimes the only thing preventing a full out panic attack is calling his voice mail and listening to the message. Or crumbling at those three little words, “I miss him”. Oh, lordy. There is a paranormal aspect to the story, in that Shayne does answer the phone. Yes, Shayne is dead and no, there is no HEA for Peter and Shayne. What you get is a twist on how you look at things, and it hit me big time. We have the tendency to look at things in a certain way, and here we, along with Peter, get slammed with the way it was supposed to have been seen, something Peter squandered and didn’t even realize it. The question Peter wanted to ask, the thing he carries around but doesn’t think about, and most especially, the final phone call with Shayne, just play on the emotions with skill and precision, taking you to a place where you can’t help but feel with Peter. It’s masterful. I know that I can’t convey the way this book truly is, because it’s sad, it’s heartfelt and it’s so very beautiful. It is one that I am going to rate a 5, wish I could give it a 6, add it to my favorites shelf and maybe never read it again, because I don’t want to ruin the clarity of it all. John Goode, all I can say is, wow.

  • *~*~*Kael*~*~*
    2019-04-11 18:04

    I've read too many of (exactly) these types of books, which is I don't know if I want to read this one too. Just because there's no HEA here :-/.I can most definitely deal with the death and the grief in a book, but I really, REALLY want the HEA!Thus, I just don't know about this one. I'll be pondering, but I shall pass for now.Having said all that, I AM sure this book is every bit as wonderful as I suspect (and have heard) that it is, because HELLO, John Goode :-)!!

  • Claudia
    2019-04-19 20:09

    Even not having a HEA, this book is wonderful, but heartbreaking.I had to stop reading on 90% of the book, otherwise I would cry in front of a lot of people. So, I finised it in my house alone, and I was really sobbing when I finished it.Totally loved it - Thanks John for this amazing book

  • K.M. Montemayor
    2019-04-09 18:06

    After reading < a href=" Baba's review, I was curious. After reading the content advisory at the bottom of the book blurb, I was intrigued.The love of Peter's life died in a car accident and ever since then, he hasn't been coping well. The only thing that keeps him going is listening to Shayne's "leave me a message" spiel on his phone.I figured out pretty early into the story how odd the three women, (and only other characters he speaks to aside from Shayne) were. I know there was something off about them, and when Nona blurts out that she knows (view spoiler)[ he's been speaking to his dead partner/husband on the phone, I really wasn't surprised. (hide spoiler)].Peter believes in God and fate. God is a good guy. Fate is a bitchy woman. While I don't believe in fate, the author did a good job of convincing me that Peter does, and that's what's important.I have to agree with Baba on the romance side of it. To me it was too mushy. I would have preferred if there was less crying and higher creep factor because this story could really go into the horror realm if the nurse had been more threatening, and a few other things were tweaked.

  • Bibek Thapa
    2019-04-21 12:52

    John Goode is awesome! This story was short, sweet, an eye-opener and just plain amazing, even though it’s not a HEA story.I’d read all of John Goode’s published books till date except this one. I contemplated reading it but then I saw the warning: “This title is a love story that does not contain a HEA” so I pushed it down on my TBR pile. And that was my biggest mistake. This story, albeit a sad romance, was still a really good one. Even in the midst of all the sorrow and pain Goode still managed to add some humor to the story and, as is his trademark, give the readers a lesson or an idea to think about. Last Dance With Mary Jane is a short but a lovely story about what it means to let go and tell the people we love the things that we want to say in time.I absolutely adored this book. This is the reason why John Goode’s one of my favorite authors. His books never disappoint.Highly Recommended!

  • The Novel Approach Reviews
    2019-03-28 19:08

    Last Dance with Mary Jane will not give you a happy ending as such. Don’t expect the long awaited kiss, the drive into the sunset hand in hand while strings flair and tears fall. Some people don’t like the lack of happy endings. I love to mourn the end when it is all it can be, just another paving stone on the road alone. John Goode has ruined me for other authors, and thus here it comes. Five stars for the man who made me cry, yet again, like no one else can. BJ's full review can be found at The Novel Approach

  • Anthos
    2019-03-29 18:03

    Should I ever have doubted that John Goode could write about nearly everything, I'd know better now. This is not Foster High, this are not the realms of Arcadia – but it's another book in the legendary John Goode quality: well constructed (but not artificial) story and excellently written. I liked the characters and especially enjoyed to meet again the candidae sorores (white sisters) of my former Latin class as such colorful characters.It's a pity the book is currently not available anymore (I received my copy as a gift from John). I really hope he will submit it soon to another publisher – the novel deserves it!

  • Amanda
    2019-04-16 17:01

    I normally don't read stories that don't end with an HEA. I think what made this ok for me to read is the fact that there isn't another love interest; This is Peter's story. Peter lost his life parter, Shayne. He is having trouble getting over Shayne's death and thinks fate keeps getting in the way of his life, killing anyone important to him and shitting on his happiness. This was a bittersweet story with a paranormal that asks: What would say do if you had one last chance to talk to your dead loved one? Keep your kleenexes handy!!

  • Brandilyn
    2019-03-29 17:59

    Reviewed for Prism Book Alliance I am not entirely sure how to review Last Dance with Mary Jane by John Goode. It is a departure from what Goode fans are used to, but the quality doesn't suffer for it.For Complete review see Prism Book Alliance:

  • Alisa
    2019-04-20 13:03

    I was sure I could read this without crying. I was wrong. This was a heart breaking yet beautiful story of a man dealing with the loss of his partner. The writing was great. So many feels in such a short story. The beauty of this was worth the tears though.

  • Moniqee
    2019-04-16 18:12

    It maybe a last dance with Mary Jane but this is a great dance that had me cried at the last phone call.

  • Absynthe
    2019-04-01 15:54

    Oh you evil bastard. You made me bawl like a baby. Painful, sorrowful, beautiful, poignant, moving and deeply romantic.

  • Felicia
    2019-04-21 16:58

    I loved this book. It made me cry the whole time I was reading it.

  • Hearts On Fire Reviews
    2019-03-30 19:51

    Reviewed by: LucyGenre: M/M BittersweetRated: 5 hearts Check out the review at: Hearts On Fire Reviews

  • Galia
    2019-04-22 16:43

    3.5 STARS

  • Pixie Mmgoodbookreviews
    2019-03-28 14:09

    5 HeartsFirst published at MM Good Book Reviews is still in the throes of grief nearly a year after his beloved Shayne died. His regrets are hard to deal with and his only solace is listening to Shayne’s voice on his voicemail, then something happens and Peter discovers that fate may just be taking pity on him.John Goode has produced a story that is touching, its heart-breaking and it is tragic. Peter is in therapy trying to deal with the loss of the love of his life, he knows who is to blame and he lays that blame at Fate’s fickle feet. Peter just can’t move forward, he has regrets, things he never said and now never can, and he just can’t understand why Fate would take Shayne away from him.This is a story that will make tears slide down your cheeks, have you whimpering in denial and praying that you will always have the time to say what you need to. Peter and Shayne had already been through enough, Shayne struck down with HIV, but finally pulling through to live a healthy happy life with Peter. But, then he is struck down in a car accident and Peter is left alone. Peter has many regrets and can’t let Shayne go. When Shayne answers the phone one night Peter thinks that he might be able to change Fate.This is a true love story of pure love that is cut short, and of the grief and the regret that the person left behind endures. The story of how they got together was sweet and the tale of how they got their nick names was romantic they were a couple fated to be together. I really want to say more, but feel that this is a story that must be read, to fully appreciate the turmoil that Peter is going through and his reactions to what is happening around him. All I will say is that I cried. I cried for the what if’s. I cried for his chance to put aside his regrets for life getting in the way and I cried at knowing he had lost the love of his life.I am going to recommend this to everyone, as it is a story that we all need to read to remind us to appreciate what we have every single day. Now I am off to make sure that my family and friends know how much I love them.